Friday, March 26, 2010

not so me

a mask is always easy to put on
always a tear behind a smile, never the other way round

emotions tend to toy with me lately
hormones raging; making me hate the ones i love
everything ticks me off; serious issues revolves around me

my heart hurts, but there is no one that i could try pour to
is it a sign? i seriously need another half in my life?

all i can think now is suicide or anything that involves pain
depression? or is it just the sugar talking?
stress has certainly been one of the MFing analhole
messing with my sugar levels, making it impossible to control and staying up high unaffected by gravity... life just sucks when the BSL is beyond my control..

i truly want an insulin pump
thinking about it adds more stress
the idea of pitching it to my parents
and also the cost of it
any sponsors out there?

heading back to brisbane again this coming sunday
not looking forward at all
uni starts on monday >.<
diving straight back into studies; pukes

sitting here on my couch at HOME
watching simba watch me
i am certainly gonna miss him loads....

-stress and depress-
daphdaph darker than ever

1 comment:

  1. daphus,

    u ok there? hang in there k? do take care. contact me if u wanna talk yeah.. fb me or something.
    miss u loads, daphus..

    vandus

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