meh

have not done a pretty good job in depicting my life as a diabetic

i am definitely a bad diabetic; no doubt there

i do try my best to keep everything under control, but they are times where my brain fools me by telling me that i'm just a normal person with a normal life

hence missing on insulin doses and not checking my sugar levels as often as i should

i hate counting carbs, and i never do a good job

i always estimate and won't be able to tell how good was my estimation because i always forget to check my sugar levels either before or after my meals

i need a beeper or something

lately i have been pretty stressed out with uni and the huge pile of assignment

i miss playing futsal, but it is just hard to get a court here; therefore no stress relieving activities

one thing that really bothers me is taking an insulin shot in public...

it freaks people out

some people even show their disgust

i know that they do not understand, so no blaming them

but it do kinda hurts sometimes

rather have a hyperglycaemia instead

or maybe i should opt for an insulin pump?

it is discreet and their is no needle visible

but the cost is mind blowing

i should definitely start buying lottery tickets, hopefully strike the jackpot and have enough cash to get a pump

anyways, i am taking a stance to change