back from the super long absent

i've been lazy and also it reached the point where i have totally forgotten that i own a blog...

anyways, a lot has happened since i last posted

had a super low that woke me up from bed, and instinctively i reached out for the glucose tabs on my bedside. there was no need to check, all i know was that i needed sugar asap.

i should prob get a glucagon pen.... yup, it is true, i do not have one... not too sure why

not much bad hypers, which makes me feel good

but there was a period where i had horrible stomach pains and i lost my appetite for several days

it was hard for me as i did not had any ketone test strips, and all the pharmacy around kota kinabalu did not hold any (i know! WTF)

the clinics too wasn't much help

i had to go to the hospital, but i did not wanted to worry my parents

i did something bad, i just left more problems unattended and prayed that i wasn't ketoacidotic

after the ketoacidosis scare, i immediately went and ordered an optium xceed and also some ketone testing strips.

now i am prepared if a ketoacidotic scare appears

not sure what else to type, so might end here

xx

post-hiatus

it has been a tough semester this year

been getting more hypos and hypers this few months

and also jasmine rice has been really mean to me

eating a serve of jasmine rice would make my sugar levels spike to a very dangerous level

it once hit 21.8mmol/L

been avoiding jasmine rice since then

it is easier living with diabetes in australia compared to malaysia

it is even easier being an aussie or american diabetic compared to a malaysian diabetic

in aussie and the states, people with diabetes have insurance and government to give them access to insulin pumps, continuos glucose monitors, test strips, insulin pump accessories, etc. in malaysia, we have to fork out our own cash. nothing is subsidised. we pay full price for it.

the price to stay alive is really putting a hole in my pocket.

been wanting an insulin pump ever since i started reading about it on blogs.

the price is about rm30k and every month, supplies would cost about rm8k. CGMs do not exist yet here.

it is kind of sad to know that one day my disease is going to stop me from doing the things i wish to do.

i know with will, preservation and discipline, i would be able to control my diabetes, but thrust me, no matter how tight it is being monitored, sugars have their mind of their own!

watching the blood sugar levels run amok is depressing, shows that i fail as a diabetic!

can't wait for the day where the malaysia would do something with their health system, so that we citizens would get access to better health.

an insulin pump would mean better control of sugar levels, and also less shots!

once every 3 days compared to 4 times a day.

huge difference!

anyways, i'm still on the 4 times a day regimen and a min of 4 finger pricks...

anyways, chibi maruko is on now

got to go

merry belated christmas and a happy new year to all!

xx

Do the BiG Blue Test, on World Diabetes Day

a week of hols and a surprise visit from lady luck

Was suppose to catch the train from toowong to the city last sunday night, but missed the train by a fraction of the second. So instead my cousins, a friend and i decided to catch the bus instead. Upon boarding the bus, i asked the bus driver if the ticket i bought earlier would be valid, he replied "No, but i'll let you on this time" =D Lucky event number 1!

After dinner at the city, my cousins, friend and i decided to take the bus home because it is much more convenient for my friend. I remember placing my ticket in my wallet, but when i board the bus, i frantically stripped search my wallet but could not locate it. The bus driver asked if i was playing with the cards i had in my wallet, and so i explained "haha, no, but instead i'm trying to look for my ticket"... he gave me a smile and asked my cousin if i really did had a ticket earlier, and she said yes, and he gave me the A-okay to board the bus =D Lucky event number 2!

Done more than i ever had during mid semester break and never felt more fatigue then ever.

Saturday - movie world

Sunday - sunnybank, le bon choix and hog's breath

Monday - dreamworld

Tuesday - sunnybank to see the agent, indooroopilly

Wednesday - breakfast at coffee club, then to the city for coffee then to gold coast for dinner

and to pancake parlour for desserts

Thursday - had lunch at old town kitchen, then grocery shopping at yuens and cooked dinner

for cousins and friend and caught a movie at night

Friday - roast pork and barbecue rice with mabel and rachel at golden bbq in the valley

Saturday - langos in the morning then paintball in the afternoon. Had dinner with cousins and

friend and watch dinner for schmucks at the cinema

Sunday - pesta rakyat in the afternoon and korean bbq at night =D

Monday - cooked dinner for cousins and friend

Today - uni from 10 to 5, had class photo at 12. Got home and prepared satay for tomorrow

night. cooked dinner, ate dinner, watch dvd and then blog

Need to shower and then study later on, the night is still "young"

Exams are near, and my brain is nearly empty.

God bless

xoxo

love hugs and kisses

daph

hyper and hypo

hyperglycaemia and hypoglycaemia are the hardest to understand and explain

when i experience either one, it could be easily confused

but the more it occur to me, to more i learn from it

when i'm feeling low, i become an angry woman

boiling with rage

i'll snap at anything i can snap at

i do try to control my rage, but most of the time i'll fail

hunger would then strike in

and i'll start to shake and become blur

unable to do simple task

if i do not act by then, i might fall into a coma and to heaven i go

when i'm amped up with sugar

i get cranky or super hyped up

i become annoying, loud and even obnoxious

if not treated, i would become ketoacidotic

i'll feel tired and become blur

i would then fall into a coma and to heaven i go

too much or too little leads to death

=(

life could get pretty depressing

but the fact that i am alive now keeps me going

thinking if its time

after years of taking shots everyday

and years of consideration

i'm finally thinking of swapping to a pump

made an appointment with the doc to discuss about switching to a pump

hopefully it won't cost too much as there is no such thing as medical insurance or government health benefit where i come from

fingers cross as i could say goodbye to multiple shots a day to a shot every 3 days

god bless

its 53 mins into october!

a new month and tons to prepare before exams!

xoxo

love hugs and kisses

life is sweet-less?

i tend to avoid food that has a high sugar content mainly because:

1) i can't have them

2) had not had sweet stuff for so long that i get sick when i have some

3) hyperglycaemia makes me go super crazy

whenever someone offers me cakes or desserts, i would kindly decline

and when they ask why, i would tell them that i am not into desserts

then they would give me this weird impression

"huh, how can you not like desserts?"

i won't tell them i'm diabetic cause most of them would feel bad for offering me desserts in the first place, so i rather not mention anything

i used to love sweets, cakes, desserts and sugars before i had diabetes

no way in the world i would pass on desserts or cakes

but ever since i had diabetes, i had to avoid all these

slowly, i learnt to not enjoy them anymore

but life ain't bad without sugar, we learn to live without it